Insomniac with Jason Mills

It is around 6:00AM. My mind won't shut off long enough for me to sleep, so I am in the computer lab just writing. I don't even have anything to say. I just can't sleep.

Dana is coming on Wednesday. I have a huge test in my Human Communication and Society class at 2:15 and there is so much information to know that I don't know. I am in violation on University policy so I have to meet with an advisor on Thursday. Should I transfer to PITT at the end of the year? Every single assignment I hand in for my journalism class I get a bad grade on. Journalism and writing is the only thing I think I am good at. I haven't smoked a cigarette in a week. What should I do with my life? What if I became a teacher? Whould that work? Encyclio Paedia in Latin means 'well rounded wisdom.' What are the 10 steps of brainwashing?

Everynight I toss and turn and imagine these things. I just lay in bed and toss and turn and think about everything that is happening in my life right now. Where I am going and where I think I should be going. My mind won't shut off long enough for me to fall asleep. There are just too many thoughts and problems and ideas running through my brain for me to just stop and fall asleep. I can't take it.

I am getting nervous again. I just want to feel comfortable and sleep, but I am too nervous.

I have class in about four hours, I just wish I had class now so I could stop thinking about everything and maybe learn something. I want anything in my brain right now than this endless cycle of bad thoughts. I can't take it. I feel like I am going crazy.

I think I am going to go watch the sunrise.

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